Spent all day yesterday not knowing what to write and by the evening when i had got it the laptop had stopped working for some reason. It may not make exactly the same sense but this is what i would have written yesterday if i could !
Why are we never content ? Grass is always greener and life would be better if ........
As humans we are inherently dissatisfied with what we have and the way things are, yet, does having everything make things rosy ?
Robbie Williams has a large fortune yet confesses to being depressed, lonely and empty. Naomi Campbell has a body and face to die for but is constantly arguing with those around her. Tony Hancock had such a talent with comedy he had fame beyond his dreams but he killed himself to escape.
I am sitting this evening frustrated and irritable due to not being where i want, with who i want, doing what i want and as with so many negative emotions, its bred to my whole life being no good compared to where it could be. Its all in my head of course, but still means i have been chewed up, ratty with the children and not really very nice to be with.
Its also stopped me doing what i could have been doing - reading with my daughter, doing yoga or having a long bubble bath and an early night.
How pathetic to miss the magic of an evening and instead be stroppy, miserable, bad tempered and isolated.
I need to take my own advice and live for the moment, the present rather than the what ifs and maybes.
I forgot to look for the sun tonight, but, thankfully "tomorrow is another day".
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