I let an old wound reopen today, it brought pain, regret and a desperate wish for things to be different.
I was reading my book on Buddhism later and learnt of duhkha (doo-ka) which is life being like a wheel out of kilter. I think that is a pretty good image of my mental state.
I take medication to correct the chemical imbalance in my head, but according to the book the way to straighten things is the SEE because :
"truth comes to us through seeing"I need to see that wound for what it is now not what caused it so long ago. I should leave the scab to heal rather than keep picking at it like a child.
"we can only deal with pain by facing it squarely"If i face that pain i know it really belongs in the past and it is self indulgent to still be feeling it. Life changes and moves on, we can look at the past but should not stare.
I wont forget that wound, its a scar that will be with me forever, however, today must be lived because: today is real, and today is truth, and today is.............well..............today !!!!