Happiness - what's that about ?
Something we all strive for, all look for, in very different places : In clothes or shoe shops, in drink or drugs, in being a member of an elite club, in having the perfect body or house.
Me ? I always find it in others and the attention they pay me. I suppose I am happiest when I'm the centre of someone else's world. From Mum to my husband with various leaders, teachers and friends in between. My need be dependent on someone is a craving and obsession. The climax of which is of course my children. Love as a mother for your baby is all consuming and its ok to be completely obsessed with them, it doesn't suffocate them, or cause them to pull away. Its just returned tenfold.
Is all the clinging to others just me giving up the authority to create my own happiness ? Expecting others to do it for me ?
Its time I took charge of me and my life, found comfort and acceptance in what and who I am and realised that I am my own refuge and can fulfil my own needs."Look not for refuge to anyone beside yourself..........In other words you're fully prepared for anything that might come along"
I AM A COMPLETE PERSON, WORTHY AND WHOLE
That is something to meditate on.